Feeling Empty

Sometimes I feel like
I have a family and friends
But sometimes I think I'm not
Sometimes I have feel empty
I hope I never live in this world
I hope I never have a chance to live my life
I hope I could disappear from this world
So no one will ever find me or see me cry
I really feel alone for a long time and I think rather I die

I don't know how much my life is meant for other people 

I not sure what would be happened in my life in the future

I'm not sure how long I will live like this 

I hope God will continue to be my best friend and be with me for long time 

I hope God always gives me more chances for me to be a better person 

To love other people more and more like Jesus loves the world