Sometimes I think I better dead than alive I rather not exist in this world than I have to keep bothersome the people around me. And I began to ask Him If today you still let me live what Your plan? I sometimes feel tired of life It seemed no longer able to live this life  I was too tired with all that is happening in my life Falling in love with someone that is not possible for me Being a woman who always lived in the imagination that never happened Dreaming of something beautiful but never happen Is Your plan in my life? "Help me to be myself" Help me to be more believe in the promise of Thy promise is always true Help me to always look for your love than to love someone who is impossible. Help me to be strong so I can live my life with passion and a smile Help me to be more closer to You more than my friends in this world I want thee always be with me in every moment and every life that I live Because i know you hold my future and the...

You're the first man that I knew You're the first man in my life You're the first man who hugged me You're first man who I see in the world You're the first man that I feel his love You're the first man that I love in life You're the first man who smiled at me You're the first man who saw me cry You're the first man who received me with my limitations For everything you are the first in my life Even though you abandoned me but you're still my dad Although I was only a few years with you And you never again be with me, for me you are my best dad But now I feel really miss you I feel so lose you I can't wait for that moment when Jesus comes back My wish is to see you again when Jesus come back The first person I wanted to see when Jesus comes back is you

A ll Thy wonders In my life really makes me amazed Thy miracles real for me Even a small thing that is An incredible miracle for me Lord, Thou are really amazing Thou art alone Just eligible glorified Thou art alone the Lord are worthy to worship

In the morning I wake up... And I realized I still alive And in a good health And I've loved in my life It's a great blessing that I have everyday  when I start my daily activity I will remind To myself don't forget to thank to the Lord Thank the Lord for what that His done for me And think what a blessing that I have yesterday And believe that what I face today is part of a greater plan from above And give my tomorrow plan to Heavenly Father who loved me

Suddenly remembered this song I really miss someone that often sing this song. Ya He is my Daddy, I really miss him so much. Jiwaku terisi oleh cinta-Nya S'karang waktunya 'tuk mengenal-Nya Dia mengatur semua baris Lirik yang ada dalam simfoni Dia b'ri padaku Reff Damai di hatiku Seperti sungai yang mengalir Damai, bagai hujan yang jatuh Damai dari Bapa di dalam hidupku Lepaskan jiwa ini dari rantai Dan Dia datang, ku mengenal-Nya Oh, ada cinta dalam namaNya Ku diubah-Nya dalam simfoni Dia b'ri padaku

Sometimes I just Want to be myself I want to do my desire I want to love in my own way But I was doing a wrong way by do my own way This is not the way of the Lord this is my way My way was not His way because sometimes my way is sin Sometimes I want He do my desire but I don't want to do His will I realize now I need to let things go to make me realize how much He loves me I realize now I should open up and give my life to Him to let Him working in my life

If they don't believe That You will come soon I will choose to always remain Believe and hold on Thy promise Even if those who are less believe it is My family, my friends and even my loved ones I will always choose to trust that Thy words is the truth Whatever they say I will remain steadfast in my faith For I believe the promise in Your words will certainly be fulfilled Lord, help me to keep my heart and my faith so that I may always been faithful to You

If love is Painful Why should Have it in my heart? If love tortured soul Why should feel? Isn't Love something beautiful? Isn't God create it? Then why if loved should hurt heart? If loved is so painful why there is in my heart? He made me feel it but why is it so hard to love? Love why you came into a beautiful dream and makes me love him? Why he should be present in every dream and make this heart wanted? Every time he had in mind, in my eyes and in my heart, why is it so hurt?